I’m so far gone, lost in my own mind. I can’t seem to tell the difference between reality and my own dreams. This numb feeling has become apart of me, I can’t seem to separate the feeling of happiness from sadness. I cant even figure out what’s got me in this mood, I don’t even know what the point of being here is. It just feels like I’m going nowhere, nothing seems to matter to me. It’s all just pointless, I don’t look forward to anything but just not being able to feel like this anymore..,if I even know what I feel. Im just so numb
Do you ever get that feeling of wishing you could just disappear? Having no more worries, stupid feelings, people you don’t wanna see anymore? You would just be so free. No pressure of this fucked up world, never getting hurt anymore, you’d never get the aching pain you feel inside but can’t control no matter what you do. Just you finally in peace, you’d never have to worry about making others happy anymore, never have to be careful about what you do or say without being judged by people who’ve never known what you’ve been through or seen. I hate these feelings I get, but when I think about all this and how royally fucked up this life is; it all seems worth it in the end right? All these unwanted thoughts would just be gone…
(Source: turquoise-dreeeams)
